So. I've been neglecting my blog. I haven't wanted to neglect it, but life has been happening and honestly most days it's happening so fast that I don't know if I'm coming or going.
So my last posting was in March of last year, so I guess I should start there, huh? In April, I found out that I was pregnant, just a couple of weeks before the Beast and I had our formal Wedding reception for our friends and family (but that's a whole 'nother post altogether... spoiler alert- when 150 people RSVP for a wedding reception, don't be surprised if only 30 show up).
And the day after our reception, the Beast lost his j.o.b. YEAH... see what I mean about life happening???
Since he lost his job, we got behind on our house payment... and lot rent... and the utilities... and his car payment. And we lost the house... and his car. The only reason we didn't lose my van is because it's completely paid off and the only reason it's completely paid off is because of a car accident (I'll write a post about that too, someday).
So we moved in with my mom and stepdad. Something I never wanted to do again. It's a long story and way too personal for this kind of thing... but the important thing to grasp is that this is not the best environment for me and my family. It's taken a toll on all of us.
We moved most of our necessities over in May and had everything else out of the trailer by the second week of June.
The end of July we found out that the baby we were expecting was a son, due to arrive the second week of December. I couldn't believe it. A boy. I was so scared. I had no idea how to be a mom to a little boy. I'll write more about this later too.
Somewhere in all THAT mess the Beast got and lost another job...
The girls started school again in August and the stress level got raised once again as we discovered that Pookie's teacher had no interest is actually teaching her. Pookie can be a challenge to work with at times but she is such an amazing kid. And this teacher just couldn't see that. All she saw was a kid who was going to need more than the absolute minimal effort that she was used to putting into teaching. Soon she stopped trying to teach her and just started sending all of her in class work home along with her homework. The Beast and I decided that she needed a better learning environment, so she is starting at a new school mid year. Fingers crossed that the new school and new teacher are better able to help her learn (and if you're wondering about what happened with her behavior problems, fear not there will be another post completely devoted to that topic).
And somewhere in THAT mess the Beast got yet another job, but has held onto this one.
In December we welcomed a beautiful new baby to our family. Little Man is for the most part a very mellow, happy baby who just loves to be held and cuddled.
And Pixie? Well she's alive and well. She's having trouble adjusting to not being the baby is the family anymore and has been acting out to get attention.
It's January. And we are still living with my parents. And honestly every day I feel like I'm dying a little more. Some days it feels like I can't breathe, can't think... some days I'm not sure I want to keep going. The Beast and our 3 amazing kids are my only anchor in this hurricane. Sometimes it feels like it's not enough. And I am amazed that somehow I haven't given up. You see this was supposed to be temporary. Very. Temporary. I know how damaging this environment is. I planned for 6 months or less. This is month # 8. And there is still no sign of freedom. We have plans for freedom. But they require the Beast getting a better job because you can't support a family of 5 on part time minimum wage.
But there is a house that just might be the answer to our prayers. It's almost affordable. And it's big enough. And the Beast just might be able to get hired back at the original job. The kick ass aircraft mechanic job.
Fingers crossed for some things to finally start going right.
And by the way... I will be blogging way more often now. Because my old phone (my only source of internet) finally kicked the bucket (which was kind of a blessing because it pretty much never worked. It didn't place calls or send texts reliably. And it's internet sucked. It was basically a paperweight) and so we had to replace phones even though we couldn't afford it. But we got lucky and got seriously awesome phones that actually work on a 50% off sale. So both phones together cost less than half of what I was expecting to pay to replace them at tax check time.(they've been working on dying for quite some time, but didn't last as long as I'd hoped).
Well this is probably long enough and messy enough for now.
I haven't had much sleep the last few weeks and had a lot to catch you up on.
Until the next time. Ciao.
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